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yesterday is history

when death comes knocking on your doors,
when you finally close your eyes for the final time,
what's running through your mind?
so here comes my final plea,
save me.
the pain, it's eating me up from within.
I had my limits tested yesterday. A sleepy man is indeed an angry man.

We celebrated my grandmum's birthday today. She looks so frail and weak now :( The prospect of ageing and being needy and reliant on people scares me so much haha I have convinced myself that I will make sure I die before all that happens. Please play my favourite na xie nian song at my funeral thaaaaaankzzzzz.

today has passed.
tomorrow is still a mystery.

What a timely reminder.

STILL FACING A PILE OF BACKLOG AND WTH 4 MORE WEEKS TO FINALS. SOME THINGS ARE NOT WORTH IT AND JUUSSSST NOT MEANT TO BE.

Hate how you, freaking you, can make me happy like a g6 and bring me down to an all time low. Hate how affected i can get. But they say once that person has pissed you off so badly, all feelings for that person just disappears. Not fun, really not fun. I'm just so tired of playing this game and pretending that everything is okay even though YOU push me to the brink of anger sometimes.

Sigh.

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