What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay
Sad. Like. A. Pie.
I want to eat all the mudpies in the world and not grow fat. I wish.
Life is like that. Like a used toy. Used to entertain when needed. Thrown away when something better comes along.
(this was last night, at 2am, unpublished)
Leaving for the land of good food (dim sum+roast goose) and hopefully good shopping soon. I am eggcited. Travelling makes me happy. I hope people are pleasant there, HK still looks and feels the same, like the streets are always bustling with people at midnight and there are small family run eateries scattered along deserted streets (and not cafeterias and restaurants, tsk globalisation) which still serve good ol' breakfast (chee cheong fun! milk tea! youtiao+soya beancurd!).
Idk honestly what to make of the situation now. It's not exactly shit that I landed myself in ha ha ha. It's just... leaving me slightly perplexed and puzzled, but still in a good way if I don't expect much LOL. The lower your expectations, no matter how bad things turn out, it won't be as horrible as when you expect too much from issues.
Will be overseas when results are released. THAT IS THE LYFE YOZ :S
Things will certainly pass by in a flurry when I'm back. 11 days away! There's still niggling worries regarding CORS and bidding for modules (hahaha nerd moment lolz) cos we have only 2 preallocated mods next sem and I don't know what other mods I want to do! Plus making sure there's no timetable clashes, max dunnohowmany MCs for Level 1000 mods (need planning!!!) and min/max MCs for the sem.
In retrospect, this has been a tumultuous year. Haven't been happy like how I wished I would have been, haven't treasured friends enough (karma!!!), lost contact with so many people, got so distracted I couldn't focus etc. Hahahah hopefully I will make better use of the remaining days when I'm back to salvage whatever that I can :)
Secretly I'm very happy. But NO, Elizabeth, CONTROL!!!
My whole life waiting for the right time
To tell you how I feel.
Know I try to tell you that I need you.
Here I am without you.
I feel so lost but what can I do?
'Cause I know this love seems real
But I don't know how to feel.
We say goodbye in the pouring rain
And I break down as you walk away.
Stay, stay.
'Cause all my life I felt this way
But I could never find the words to say
Stay, stay.
Alright, everything is alright
Since you came along
And before you
I had nowhere to run to
Nothing to hold on to
I came so close to giving it up.
And I wonder if you know
How it feels to let you go?
Just keep walking on, moving on and finally letting go! There's a whole new world out there, unventured and unexplored. No hard feelings for anything! No more remnants left to pick up. No more shit left to clear. All I'm left with are good old memories :')
"And you move on, and life gets beautiful again -- only the colours are slightly different, that's all."
From my FB favourite quotations. HOW APT.
Life is indeed beautiful again :')
(yes the happy vibe!!!)
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