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finding the good in goodbye


He halted in the wind, and -- what was that
Far in the maples, pale, but not a ghost?
He stood there bringing March against his thought,
And yet too ready to believe the most.

"Oh, that's the Paradise-in-bloom," I said;
And truly it was fair enough for flowers
had we but in us to assume in march
Such white luxuriance of May for ours.

We stood a moment so in a strange world,
Myself as one his own pretense deceives;
And then I said the truth (and we moved on).
A young beech clinging to its last year's leaves.

a boundless moment by robert frost

Too shagged to do anything.

Inane tasks like brushing the teeth equates to an opportunity to catch some shut eye. Which saw me napping in the toilet for 1 hour. 10ish-11pm. Woke up feeling grossed out but very much awake after that experience. And so I have slept in all parts of the house, from the bedrooms to the kitchen floor to... the toilet.

Jaywalked blindly in my own world and missed the speeding bus by inches after a random passer-by pulled me back. So close to be in paradise and watching people from up above.

Donated blood (Y) Rejected twice because of low bp. Spammed melon milk and ran up and down stairs to get the blood pumping and yes it did. Increased from 54 to 81! BLOOD WAS WASTED because imma sucha suckerrrrr i actually felt giddy midway... It wasnt pain strangely. I didn't feel anything, or rather, couldn't feel anything. Mind was too pre-occupied with things. Stomach churned when I saw the blood flowing out of my vein into that bag. It was an icky dark red colour. The blood was first collected in this small satchet before it flowed into the bigger bag. That small satchet was resting on my wrist. I could feel the warmness of my own blood but it was just plain sick idk why I was just v disgusted that the fluids in me actually felt so warm?

PC1431 lab was horrendous. I couldn't catch the accent = 2.5% gone.

Sit in lab was okay, vvvv thankful for the manageable qns. STILL HATE PROGRAMMING.

EG1109 quiz went well. Solved the question when the time was almost up. Mad rush, brain never felt so exhausted after that. G was amazed hahahahaha from blank paper to answers in 8 min. We got a ride in S's car. Omg he drives like an ah beng but naiseeeee I like the speed (Y) Discovered the secret backdoor to the basement carpark at clementi mall. It was a downwards circular ramp and he didn't brake at all omg.

Tutorials are depressing. Sucks to have done a tutorial and go through solutions only to find that everything is WRONG.

For the record, the answer is No. With a capital N.

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